Whats worse- the pain or the hangover?

Relationships are the most bittersweet things in this world...In retrospect I've only had two real relationships and they have both had disastrous endings, me in heartbreak and in a slew of confusion....Relationships do come and go...but often i ask myself, when will it be my turn to have one where the other personcares as much and is willing to put in the same work as I am if not more?  After every disastrous relationship ending I always began to doubt myself, thinking that there was something really wrong with me.  But slowly i realized that's not the case at all.  Relationships are learning experiences of what you will and wont accept...The pain is heart wrenching in the beginning, but it slowly eases away.  Remember everything happens for a reason, although you may not see it at the time your experience is something you needed to grow.  And remember there never is anything wrong with you ladies, but with the jerk who couldnt see your worth